i was wrong about not being able to hurt myself but im happy just to hang out around the places i like to be at (school is not one of them) i really need sleep before i pass out in a hall way or classroom and i really need to eat something or i will pass out from that but other then all that i need to figure something out and i have no clue what i need to figure out but then im tierd of being depressed and im tierd of being hurt by people and i hate that everyone is attempting to make me belive that alot of them care about me and alot of my friends dont and i really hate that but what even more suckish is that the people who are supposed to care dont. whitch really bothers me the only people that i know care for sure are 2 of my friends and my bf. i hate that about my life and its all because my gre4at grandma dies to years ago and when febuary hits im gunna be depressed all month long and what even worse then that is my great grandmother died on valintines day so i cant evan enjoy that. so im gunna be depressed for all of febuary and possibly during christmas break cause that was her fav holiday.